When I first started, I was keen for a few matched, everybody told me it was addictive and I would not be able to give it up. I never had that problem, I think it is because I don't seem to be the addictive type. One day I woke up and decided to gave up smoking after 30 years and have not touched a cigarette since.
One day you started smoking and didn't stop for 30 years!
If you're not getting the results or improving it's going to get boring. Either give it a break, quit or think about getting some coaching to help you along.